Archive for October 21st, 2008

11th Radiation Treatment of 20
Radiation Dose Received to Date: 16.5Gy
Total Dose Prescribed: 30Gy

Rads are at 8:45 today. We stop by the boat early in the morning before my rad treatment to see how it is coming along. It’s totally calm at the yacht club so we raise the sails to air them out. One of the mechanics arrives and shows us how cool the sound attenuation is going to look on the engine covers.

I’m very tired and work as much as I can from home. I’m nervous, bitchy, tired of being tired and worried about the future. I’m not sure if this “bad day” is due to rad fatigue or is just a very bad day. Cass is under the weather and is staying home so at least I’m not alone. I seem to feel unusually crummy so I’m really wondering if this is finally the cumulative fatigue of the rads. I had a good sleep and can’t think of any other reason why I should feel poorly.

One thing that is bugging me is that my throat is still nervous. I keep tensing it up until it hurts and that seems to cause me to want to tense it up more. <sigh>. I’m sure this isn’t pathological, it’s emotional, but I still can’t seem to help doing it. Arrrrgh!! Even though I am tired and try to rest this nervous tic prevents me from resting comfortably.

So, now we’re lying in bed and I’m considering taking a Lorazepam. That will make it all better… for 6 to 8 hours anyway. Bombs away.

Nigel Tufnel: The numbers all go to eleven. Look, right across the board, eleven, eleven, eleven and…
Marty DiBergi: Oh, I see. And most amps go up to ten?
Nigel Tufnel: Exactly.
Marty DiBergi: Does that mean it’s louder? Is it any louder?
Nigel Tufnel: Well, it’s one louder, isn’t it? It’s not ten. You see, most blokes, you know, will be playing at ten. You’re on ten here, all the way up, all the way up, all the way up, you’re on ten on your guitar. Where can you go from there? Where?
Marty DiBergi: I don’t know.
Nigel Tufnel: Nowhere. Exactly. What we do is, if we need that extra push over the cliff, you know what we do?
Marty DiBergi: Put it up to eleven.
Nigel Tufnel: Eleven. Exactly. One louder.
Marty DiBergi: Why don’t you just make ten louder and make ten be the top number and make that a little louder?
Nigel Tufnel: [pause] These go to eleven.

Dialogue from This is Spinal Tap


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