Archive for January 6th, 2009

Cass and I are both back to work and it’s a bit of an adjustment. Having been off for a month we have to get back in the groove of waking up early and going to sleep at a reasonable time. I am still finding I am tired in the afternoon so I am trying to get as much done in the mornings and rest in the afternoon if I have to. I don’t know how long this will keep up but I’ll just have to keep my eye on it. I have to remember that it’s only two months since I finished the radiation therapy.

The weather is stinky. The snow is still on the ground so it’s prevented Cassie from riding our horse. It’s also been very rainy and it looks like that will continue. It’s also interesting that I’m suffering some separation longing for her. On vacation we spend most of our time together. Now that we’re back at work I miss her during the day.

So, an updated damage control report:

  • The “throat thing” that gave me so much trouble during November and December is gone. My family doctor suspected it was caused by acid reflux and gave me a powerful PPI that totally knocked out the acid producing capability of my guts. This was a very uncomfortable remedy. I no longer seemed to be digesting my food but was more constricting it like a Python. I took this for two weeks and then stopped. The tension, clicking and compulsive swallowing have not returned.
  • The hair on my back, chest and neck have sharp edged bald spots where the radiation therapy targeted me. It may or may not grow back.
  • The hair on my head has a strange frizzy quality as a result of the chemo.
  • My butt seems to have settled down since the shit-kicking (HA HA HA) it took during chemo.
  • I am less tired but still can become fatigued suddenly and with little warning.
  • I keep feeling around in my neck, abdomen and shoulders and, other than the scar tissue around my biopsy wound, everything seems normal.
  • The flesh to the right of the biopsy scar has weird tingling sensations from nerve damage.

So, all in all, things are looking good. The lymphoma seems to continue to be in full remission. The effects of the treatment are either gone, continue to improve or are of a trivial impact to my quality of life. If frizzy hair and some tingly skin is all I’ll end up with as a permanent remnant of my fight with Hodgkin’s I will be extremely lucky. As far as long term effects to my heart, lungs and other organs… only time will tell. There’s little value in worrying about that until it must be worried about.

“You will not die because you are ill, but because you are alive” Old Seneca saying.


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